I am Enough

It is so easy for us to forget this.  We see people who are more successful, more beautiful, and way more brilliant.  We see flawless representations of lives on social media and cant help but compare as we're bombarded by images of a woman who seems to truly do it all while we're still wearing our pajamas at 3:30 in the afternoon and haven't even brushed our hair.  I catch myself judging and comparing constantly.  I find myself stopping my dreams before I even start (or sabotaging halfway through) because of my inability to move past my own inadequacy.  "I cant go after what I want because I haven't had enough training or experience."  "I cant meet the love of my life yet because of these five pounds" "First I need to grow my hair out or make X amount of dollars before it can happen."  The excuses go on and on....  This is trickery of our subconscious mind telling us that we're not enough.  It is a false belief system based on the stories we were told throughout the years that no longer needs to apply because we are enough, right now, exactly as we are, in this moment.

 

Repeat after me a million times "I am enough."  There will never be a perfect time and the only way to know you're enough right now in this moment is to dive full on into your life with heart and eyes wide open.  This mantra of "I am enough" needs to be repeated as we ted to forget. Post it on your mirror, set an alarm as a reminder and constantly affirm to yourself that you are worthy, deserving, and enough exactly as you are, right now, in your perfectly imperfect self.

I will practice and forget a thousand times today.     

Less Scrolling for more Sankalpa

I am tearing through The 4 Desires after picking up and closing the book 5 times in the last 5 years.  I believe things come to you when you're ready and I think this time I was finally ready for Rods amazing book.  Every page is filled with gold nuggets as to how to create your best life with intention.  We create an intention (or Sankalpa) and also are asked to list a few of our bad habits.  For majority of us these habits are unconscious and buried way deep in our subconscious routine. The idea is to eradicate the bad habit and fill the gap with our Sankalpa.  To catch the act, to pause and in that silent state reiterate our Sankalpa. 

Thats the practice for me this week.  I have a tendency to scroll on instagram to play comparison and judgement games.  Today, tomorrow, and many more moons after I will catch myself being habitual with instagram.  I will stop, I will pause and reflect and I will fill the moment of space and time to reiterate my Sankalpa.  

May we create, may we be at ease and may we notice which habits hinder us from living our best life. 

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

~ from Dream Work by Mary Oliver

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Reminders

"The place where you are right now god circled on a map for you. Wherever your eyes and arms and heart can move against the earth and sky, the Beloved has bowed there. Our Beloved has bowed knowing you were coming. I could tell you a priceless secret about your real worth dear pilgrim. But any unkindness to yourself, any confusion about others, will keep one from accepting the grace, the love!" - Hafiz

I remember this when I want to run, when I become to small to speak what my heart wants to say, when I repeat old patterns and believe my doubt.  When I think this situation is permanent and I'll never be more than a little girl teaching yoga.

May I doubt my doubt 

May I Trust in the divine timing of life.  May I enjoy this stop on the map.  Life becomes a lot more enjoyable when we can pause and appreciate the journey, even just once in a while.